Do you have the feeling you are getting older, too? I do. Especially when I realized earlier this week, I have less than 100 days until I get 40. I started to notice every wrinkle. I am one of the luckiest people that have just few but just now I could see them all. I... Continue Reading →
I realize these days, when my home is my whole world, that I made a hell of a journey until today. I love my house, I love my job, I love my family and my husband and I love to spend this time in our small universe. I care very much for everything I do, and I do it all with care, love and passion. I know that for some people, this period might not be same.
My story today is about some thoughts I had to un-think to get here and some things I had to undo because they did not fit to who I am.
I lived my childhood and adolescence in a “happy” numbness… When I started to awake, I didn’t remember the path. I don’t remember it still. All I know is that I woke up one day from my imaginary world full of fairies and…
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Changing my story. Anatomy of rejection. This is a story about the struggle of the mind and soul when dealing with rejection. It is the tale of choosing between running, hiding and lying to myself or facing and healing the most hurtful feeling of rejection
Some of you might not know that I have an engineering diploma - computer science. I've always been very good at math, and understood physics and chemistry beyond the rigid calculations and formulas teach in school. It came natural for me comprehend all science practicalities is in real life, at home and in nature. I... Continue Reading →
The biggest heartbreak I ever had, originated in my own expectations. Did you know that we tend to put ourselves on the stage and imagine that we get the attention of the other people? Social psychology proved that we don't get that much attention as we imagine we do. Also it proved that for us... Continue Reading →
Have you ever been so passionate about something that you become addicted to it at the first sight? It happened to me with NLP. I call it "the affair" of my life! When I started my first job, it became clear for me that for me the passion for the human mind and human connection... Continue Reading →
Can you imagine to wake up every day and just be happy? Or do you remember the last time when you felt like that ? I used to wake up smiling every day. Not just smiling. With a huge smile on my face, for the simple reason that the Sun is up again, and I... Continue Reading →
I can't stop imagining our own universe. The mirage where we are solely happy, where there is no pain, no hard choice to make, no broken dream or heart, no suffering and no shadows. In that universe life is flowing effortlessly. In that universe the only thing we need to take care of is to... Continue Reading →
The stories that once broke me, are not me. Often I feel I am living them over and over again. That torment is absorbing me like a tornado and it takes me back, like in "Groundhog Day", in a timeless and endless freefall. For many years I considered it to be a punishment, disguised in... Continue Reading →
It's dark in my heart now again. There is no one around. Silence and blackness reign over my emptied soul realm. Yet, I am not afraid anymore. I know I am still home. This weird feeling of safety creates an energy ball around me. And I remember. I have been here so many times before.... Continue Reading →