I felt teared apart many times and in many ways. I felt I live in the same time in million universes and went in as many directions. I roamed all these years in the pursuit of something undefined, unspecified, unknown or not even thought. It felt like a hard walk through a stormy desert. Tasting like sand. Smelling like stormy wind. Wherever I turned there was emptiness, aridity or loneliness. The desert was full of pain and grief, of guild and shame, of sin and there was no sign of salvation.
And I kept looking for something I did not knew. Sometimes I waited there and stood still in the storm, sometimes I walked trying to keep standing on my feet and not let storm put me down. I was guided by a feeling of knowing that there is something outside the desert. While advancing through the empty desert I first met STRENGTH. It was there with the impulse of keep walking, of getting up.
And I said:
– Welcome, where are we going? She said:
-We go where is love and light.
And I kept walking with an ally that knew there is always something out there.
When I felt I was searching for too long, I started to wonder if there is anybody else there. It felt like I could not go anywhere from there. And I found SELF-ESTEEM. Again I said:
– Welcome. Do you know where are we going?
– Sure, she said. Here. All of a sudden the desert transformed into a jungle. It was wet, and a bit cold but full of green and million bird and animal sounds, tasting like water, and smelling like the grass after the rain. I felt a lot of presences. I felt I am part of every piece of it, and I was containing them all.
It was scary and empowering in the same time. I then met CONNECTION.
And I said:
-Welcome! I welcome you all HOME again. With such amazing guests back HOME, I can only breathe the earth beat nurturing all of my needs and wants so easy just like universe nurtures us all.
A metaphor, of course. But this metaphor is what keeps me going. I found it in the Generative Coaching Process lead by Stephen Gilligan last week. And I started to feel complete and HOME again since then.
All of what I learned I integrated in my workshops. As one of my colleagues said to me, after this week, as of now, nothing will be the same again.
Have an inspired week.