I love to be in the driver seat, to see the road ahead, and to have the feeling of choosing where I go. Sometimes I believe though, there is just one mountain path, that can take me to the top.
Trying to climb back from the sideways it takes often longer. Precious time. Lost life moments, bad choices, guilt, regrets.
But is that hard to accept that there is just one way…. THE WAY! Isn’t it?
The fastest way to the top is the way of hard truths!
Hard truth is accepting that I am not the hero I imagined to be; perhaps my need to be hero comes from the seek of redemption or from an old feeling of not enoughness; or is it here because I have an urge for acknowledgement, for being seen and accepted?
Hard truth is that self sacrifice is not requested or required except in life and death situations, which occur at most few times in a lifetime; in the rest of life’s moments, is just a form of (self) abuse and a potential representation of helplessness.
Hard truth is that I am no villain either, so I do not deserve bad things to happen to me. The guilt or shame is just there to remind me of my inner beliefs about me and the world. And these beliefs can be easily changed.
Hard truth is that ego needs to find acceptance outside to validate its hesitant and mistrusted choices of thought and belief.
Hard truths paths makes me doubt! And doubt is the first necessary step to allow the brain to create new neural paths.
To overcome the doubt of hard truths I need to confidently step on the choices realm
It all starts with I choose. And it means I have the responsibility for the outcome the choice is producing.
I choose where I put my focus and intention – on good or on bad, if I leave myself devoured by my demons or I come closer to serve and help light-walkers to light up this realm, if I chose love over fear, revenge or justice.
I also have the choice to feed my mind with lies and stories about heroes and greater good just to justify my actions, or to tell to myself the hard truth that I do everything just to heal my bleeding wounds, to stop them from exsanguinate me, to stop life draining out from my body, mind and soul; to be seen and approved because I don’t know how to do all of it by myself.
I have the choice to acknowledge that I need to think what I think, dream what I dream, say what I say and do what I do just for ME, because I need to feel better, to do better, to be better than my inner perception of me.
The choice and the intention are my two magical unbreakable weapons!
And those are the only two things under my control: the intention and the choice. The rest of the road builds up ahead even without my attention or control.
Acknowledging my hard truths was for me liberating. It freed me up of the need to look for ways to hide myself of me. I just have to trust the path and the process and be present in every moment of my life, be there for me. This way I take the best decisions for me and for my greater good.
I am curious what is your hard truth?
Are you ready to listen and give it the voice over?